Deafening Silence

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Deafening Silence, an idiom: a group of words established by usage as having a meaning not deducible from those of the individual words.  You’ve heard this phrase before and let’s face it, we’ve all felt deafening silence at multiple points in our lives.  For example, that uncomfortable silence or lack of response when you say something stupid and the response is utter silence. Or…that awkward moment in which someone just stares and leaves you to ponder the reason you even shared what your brain deemed appropriate in that moment. YUP! We’ve all been there! The phrase “deafening silence” hints at a bit of psychological truth. It’s the lack of response that reveals something significant such as disapproval, that “uuuhhhhhh moment”, or zero enthusiasm, reaction or action from someone that just wreaks havoc on our guts and brains. The kind of silence that speaks so loudly you can’t hear what is being said…although nothing is actually being said.

Deafening silence would describe how I feel often times. The absence of noise, so profound that it seems to take on it’s own quality. The silence (absence of hearing), but the feeling you obtain from others or your circumstance is so freakin’ LOUD. Your head can’t stop spinning and the thoughts ring to the highest decimal!  To the degree that your screeching tinnitus doesn’t even have the slightest chance! Your brain is the final stretch and winning the race!

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Deafening silence, has zero to do with hearing loss. It has everything to do with your thoughts. All those demons that live above. Or those people who made you feel less, maybe unworthy or not important. Maybe it was someone you loved, maybe a family member or maybe the friend you thought was your friend. Maybe it’s the circumstance you’re living with today. Deafening silence seems to come during the most significant times in our life. Good or bad, situations, unrealistic expectations, actions (or lack thereof) will speak loudly. Deafening silence so bad, it’s a complete blackout! You can’t go forward, you can’t go backwards… you’re stuck…. With your circumstances, with worldly impact, with your brain!

And then someone tells you “it’s all in the power of positive thinking”. Hahahaha, they have to be kidding right?! Yup, you’re about to lose your mind and throw another one of those “hissy-fits”. How dare someone tell me to be positive when my life is out of control in this moment??? Aaaaahhhhhh! (hands in face moment).  And then they gift you with the Norman Vincent Peale book “The Power of Positive Thinking”… you know the guy that said “Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you’ll land among the stars”…. Your first thought:  #lamequotenorm . Next thought, I will throw this book at you and that dern Norman too for writing all this nonsense!  Irrational?  Maybe! But it’s how you feel right?! And who can tell you that your feelings are wrong???  But let’s face it, that doesn’t make you feel any better and doing all that “extra” gets us absolutely nowhere!

Realistically, I believe you can ABSOLUTELY train the brain to think positively if you truly want to feel positive! Difficult? YES! But it’s doable! You can’t do it alone. You HAVE to surround yourself with positive people, positive situations, with lots of love, encouragement and support. You can read all the self-help books you want, but if you feel nothing positive, there is nothing that can train your brain otherwise. Your life may be different. You may be different because of your circumstances. People may treat you different. Sometimes they will look at you with complete pity and silence because they don’t know what to say. And that silence is so deafening, it’s depressing. It can control you, it can break you, OR…. you can punch that deafening silence in the face!  The latter sounds much more fierce and heroic!!

The Bible says:

“Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things” – Philippians 4:8

“A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones” – Proverbs 17:22

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God” – Philippians 4:6

Today, we have an opportunity to give our circumstances to God, focus on the good in our lives vs. our circumstances, be thankful and pray for the best outcome possible. “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” – Philippians 4:13.

Admittedly, I didn’t wake up this morning feeling at peace or joyous. I woke up feeling completely drained and annoyed by all the things I allow to control me. Things that are truly irrelevant! I had to physically reel in my brain and focus on something positive. In that moment, I remembered the crucifixion. The gruesome pain and suffering that Our Father endured so that we might be saved, be protected, provided for, be loved, be secure in and to feel worthy and valued. That’s right, our own personal hero! My circumstances may prohibit me, depression may try its best to take a foothold in my life, I may not be perfect, but The Father LOVES ME, ACCEPTS ME, PROVIDES FOR ME AND I AM WORTHY! He does not give up on me or you! What an absolute blessing and positive thought to get my brain headed in the right direction!!!  Better yet, no one gets punched – HA!!

If your day began off track. If you feel hurt, unloved or unworthy. If you too sometimes feel deafening silence in your life, remember that this moment is only temporary. It is NOT your eternity.

Get up! Punch that Meniere’s Disease in the face! Or whatever battle your fighting, don’t give up! Fight the good fight, like Our Father fought for us! Focus on what is TRUE, what is HONORABLE, what is JUST, what is PURE, whatever is LOVELY, COMMENDABLE, EXCELLENT, and WORTHY OF PRAISE! And then, GIVE THANKS!

It’s a new day, a new month and we all recognize November as a month of giving thanks (cue the daily FB posts of the things people are thankful for – yes, I went there!). By practicing the “power of positive thinking” it will help us to give thanks EVERY DAY! Life will be a little less deafening silence and a lot more songs of praise if we can just let go, and let HIM work!  Reminding myself of this today and everyday.  And if this dizzy chick spins off track, feel free to nudge her back in her lane!

Spin ya’ later y’all!

The.Dizzy.Chick.

3 thoughts on “Deafening Silence

  1. Pingback: Deafening Silence | The.Dizzy.Chick.

  2. Sometimes the positivity thing just doesn’t work. Sometimes you need to let yourself feel the angst for the moment…know that it is ok to feel it and then move on. I used to feel so guilty that I couldn’t be positive all the time. I would beat myself up because it was just too dang hard to keep it up.
    I’m not against being positive, but if I try to be positive all the time I am going to break. I can’t live up to it.
    If things get too bad, I allow myself a moment or so. I get back to being the me under there….but for a little while, I have to have that feeling, that feeling of…..dang this is bad.
    Here’s a little blog post I read about it that I like a lot. http://lisaesile.com/great-positivity-hoax-science-happiness-got-wrong/

    Now ever day, I do find it helpful to think of something that I find grateful for. Everyday no matter how bad things are, I always try to make note of something I’m grateful for….there is always something. that always helps me.

    (sorry I haven’t been around lately, been having a really rough month. but I’m very grateful for I’ve found people like you who…fellow Meniere’s warriors! Keep up the good fight!)

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