A Year Ago Today

  
Happy Wednesday Y’all!

I’m in the air, heading back from Cedar Rapids, IA, where I pulled off a surprise visit to see my family!  We had a blast during my stay and it was a blessing to be able to spend time with my sister, her hubby, my nieces, nephew and my parents.  Leaving is always the hardest part! 

Taking a last minute trip across the country is not something that “Aunt Missy” would typically do.  I’m a planner by nature so spontaneous does not typically reside in my vocabulary. When the idea popped in my  head the day before I left (yes, I said the day before!), I shared it outloud with my coworkers and friends. Immediately, they all encouraged me to “GO”…”Just do it Missy”…. “you only live once”…  That last statement so true and profound. Why you ask? Because it’s true! And because on June 17, 2014, I recieved the most unwelcomed surprise of my life that changed me…and changed my life forever.  This surprise humbled me and made me realize “you only live once”! 

On this day last year, it was a sunny, humid Tuesday.  Same as today. I will never forget how I felt that day. All day… My ear felt full, I couldn’t get it to equalize and I felt like I had been sitting on a boat and couldn’t get my “land legs”. At work I kept commenting that it was bothering me, but I had no clue as to what was about to happen to me.  

Late afternoon, I drove my boyfriend to the airport and decided to go home and lie down after since I wasn’t feeling the best.  Which is not like me as I’m never still long enough to nap.  I slept several hours that afternoon and awoke to the most out of control feeling of my  life.  Something that I never want to relive.  Ever. Again.  

When I woke up, naturally I needed to use the restroom.  So I hopped up from the couch, but only to find myself immedately back on the floor.  As I tried to get up and walk, I continued to fall.  I would go side-to-side as if on a boat that was severely rocking.  I couldn’t get my balance, I would continue to fall to the ground.  I crawled back to my couch trying not to panic.  I decided to phone my mother who lived a half hour away to let her know what was happening.  She asked if I wanted her to leave immediately to come to me and the independent side of me said “No, I’ll try again and text you”.  Dumb move.  As I tried to make my way back to the restroom, I began to have drop attacks.  I couldn’t recover from them, I couldn’t walk.  They continued. It was worse than any roller coaster ride or drunk anyone could be on.  There was no control.  Once again, I managed to crawl back to my phone to call my mother.  The first words out of my mouth were not pleasant. Uncontrollable vomit.  And it wasn’t stopping.  The hardwood floors were moving like escalators, they wouldn’t stop.  My house was rocking and spinning, it wouldn’t stop.  And my mother arrived to find me hanging over the back of my sofa with vomit everywhere.  I was physically debilitated and there was no relief in sight.  

Mom was so patient and worked to get me in a position that would allow me to stop spinning temporarily.  That position was holding my head to the left side as my right side was the problem.   I had slept on the right side and it was the side that had bothered me all day.   If I moved my head even slightly right or left I was uncontrollably vomitting.  It was like living a nightmare that I’ll never forget for the rest of my life.  One that I hoped was only temporary and I would never experience again.  

After 12 hours of vomitting off and on and not being able to keep any medicine in my system, my mother gave me two options:  1) Ambulance ride (Ummm heck no. I’m not riding on my back flat in an ambulance) or 2) She would drive me to the hospital with my trash can in tow. But that would require me walking, which wasn’t working for me.  I chose number two.  My sweet Mom helped dress me and somehow got me to that car.  

Y’all!! I know you’re thinking “oh, how sweet”…and it was! But it was SO embarrassing.  As a 36 year old woman, having to have someone help you to the bathroom, dress you, help you walk was an extremely humbling experience.  Man or woman, having to depend on someone else for simple, daily things while debilitated is gut wrenching. 

When we arrived to the hospital, I immediately received great care.  The physician got me pumped full of meds and helped me  to focus and work through the vertigo. He shared with my Mom that my ears were full of fluid and he wasn’t sure if I had acute laybrinthitis or something more.  He put me on a driving ban for a few days and let her know that I would need care as my balance had suffered.  Once again, forcing me to depend on others. For an independant woman it’s not only physically crippling but also emotionally. 

I followed the doctor’s orders and the medications afforded me good rest.  The following morning I woke up thinking all will be better.  But, not so much….. My balance was terrible, I was hardly mobile.  When I made it downstairs, my mom began talking to me.  As she continued to talk, I realized something that set me into panic mode yet again….  I couldn’t hear her!!  I mean I could hear her….but I couldn’t hear her.  My right ear was blocked, there was no sound. I felt completely deaf in that ear.  The nightmare continued… 

After a month on steriods and multiple hearing tests, my hearing did not improve.  I was referred to a phenomenal ENT but everything he was recommending was not working.  I became increasingly frustrated, scared, nervous as to if this was going to continue to happen over and over, and worried that my hearing would never return again.  I was becoming increasingly frustrated and depressed.  I wasn’t Missy at all.  

After months of research and doctor visits, I had pretty much diagnosed myself but was in denial that it could be. If I didn’t have labryinthitis and my hearing wasn’t improving, all signs pointed to Meniere’s Disease. And there was not one.good.thing. about this disease. The blogs were depressing, the ENT’s are not as familiar with the disease, family doctors had no clue and worst of all, the words:  No Cure.  The words continued: unknown causes, unknown triggers, unknown treatments and the question of if existing treatments truly work.  There were many unknowns. The depression slowly continued take over. 

After inquiring on Facebook as to if anyone had experienced or heard of this disease, I received a recommendation to a specialist in Raleigh, NC.  Fortunately, this specialist visits Greenville, SC once a month where I happen to reside and decided to accept me as new patient. My first visit was August 8, 2014, almost two months after my initial episode. Upon arrival, I felt extremely nervous that he would think I was crazy. I felt no one understood. And this doctor will think, “Here’s another patient diagnosing herself via the interwebs”! I felt irritable and angry that I had to be there and then suddenly it hit me… “Missy, you wouldn’t be here, in this place, in this specialist’s office, if God did not intend for you to be here”. A sense of peace came over me and I felt at ease.  And then the doc walks in to introduce himself and he immediately announces that I have Meniere’s Disease. Ohhh boy, it has been confirmed.  It’s official. Like official, official. And not just in one ear but both ears. I’m bilateral. No more calm.  

My life that day, once again, changed forever.  I would be living with this debilitating, incurable, and unpredictable disease for the rest of my life.

And here I am, one year later, sharing my long and very personal story with you. And as I reflect over this year of doubt, fear, worry, and change, I can confirm with you the following: 

  • God is GREAT and HE is the GREAT Physician
  • Life is truly short and you only live once.  Make the best of it and be spontaneous!
  • I don’t care about the small stuff that I did before or what other people think of me
  • I will invest in relationships that are good and healthy
  • I will be more empathetic to others in need
  • I will serve others 
  • Money is not everything. God provides all that you need
  • I will continue to be obedient to the diet and treatment course
  • I will continue to invest in my health. We ALL should be aware of what we put in our bodies
  • REST is everything
  • Managing your stress and getting rid of any stressors is key (Tough but necessary)
  • Spending quiet time daily in the Bible and with The Father has helped to change my perspective on life and my circumstances
  • It is important to find genuine friends that are a strong support system. They empathize not sympathize – BIG DIFFERENCE
  • That you have to love life and everything you do – Truly LOVE it!
  • Embrace your circumstances and take it all in… In one, big, giant inhale! 
  • Breathe in life and love your many blessings… even your circumstances are gifts! 

I can confirm that this week was one of the best weeks and gifts in my life… a simple, last minute trip to Iowa with family!  One year ago today changed me….. but ultimately, for the better! 

Spin Ya’ Later Y’all,

🌀The.Dizzy.Chick.🌀

Tips on Increasing Your Activity Level & Managing Fatigue

  
Do you ever feel like👆🏼??? But much too often??  Just plain tired y’all!!

After the weekends, it seems like my fatigue levels are higher and I spend days recovering.  Or after a busy week of work and/or travel.  Really anything that expends energy is not accepted by my body as it once was.  This can be increasingly frustrating if you are typically an active and on-the-go person like myself.

I came across this article from the Vestibular Disorder Association therefore it is written specific to those suffering vestibular disorders.  But in my opinion, the article is applicable across the board.  If you are suffering Meniere’s Disease, this is a must read.  Some of the suggestions I currently do now. But there are other suggestions that I hadn’t thought of that may help to increase activity levels and manage fatigue.  If anything, reading this article was validation for me that I’m not alone in experiencing, at times, extremely low energy levels.

If you’re like me, it’s time we stop beating ourselves up for feeling “lazy” and accept the realities of living with a vestibular disorder.  But there are things that we can do to help alleviate some of the anxiety and stress so it’s less taxing on our bodies. For others affected by Meniere’s Disease and/or an autoimmune disease or anything life changing, this is worth the read!  Let’s stick together and keep supporting each other! It goes a long way! 

Please feel free to share your comments or suggestions as to what has worked for you.  I will share them with others in need of encouragement!  Peace & love peeps! 

Article published on http://www.vestibular.org 

http://vestibular.org/sites/default/files/page_files/Documents/Increase%20activity_manage%20fatigue_Claire.pdf

Spin Ya’ Later Y’all,

🌀The.Dizzy.Chick🌀

Distractions: It’s Been A While…

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Hey Y’all,

I hope today’s much overdue post finds everyone happy, healthy and loving life to the fullest!  Yes, I said much overdue because I’ve disappeared from the blog since umm…. MARCH!  Whoops! Let’s just say there has been much going on to keep me distracted. But no excuses, I’m guilty as charged! 

Speaking of distractions, I don’t know about you, but I often allow things to distract me from all of the above mentioned.  Enjoying life, happiness, being healthy, etc. It’s not intentional y’all, it’s just LIFE! And it seems that life has a funny way of offering plenty of interruptions and distractions whether it be fun things, not so fun things, situational things, and/or circumstances beyond our control sort of things. And while we do our best to not let interruptions lead to destruction, we often allow them to distract us.

For example, my health continues to prove a challenge for me. Having Meniere’s Disease makes me really tired. I have no energy some days to get out and do the things I love. Often, I feel insecure that I’m not as strong as I was before.  This interruption in my health has made me even more afraid of the unknown (as if I wasn’t already afraid enough!!).  And although my symptoms are somewhat under control, and my hearing improved, I’ve managed to somehow contract colds or sinus infections that have set me back (or as I view it at least). Unexpected things that cause me to be frustrated and lose focus. 

As with life, there are unexpected things that come up in our jobs, there are the unexpected actions of others that hurt us, or there may be someone that unexpectedly needs your help and you are… well, busy! There are unexpected health issues, the list goes on.  Distractions.  Interruptions.

Historically, I have found that distractions are what I allow to dictate my feelings and how I react to situations. They halt my progress and keep me from time with God (notice I say “they” vs. taking ownership). I also allow them to distract me from my routine and Heaven help us ALL when this happens!!  I tend to allow distractions to impact my rest, which results in unclear, negative thinking, and impacts my overall well being.  And if I continue to allow distractions to derail me, it will keep me from seeing my purpose, my goals, and more importantly, they will keep me from seeing and hearing God clearly.

I recently listened to Holly Furtick’s Mother’s Day message which was titled “The Gift of Interruption”.  Holly is the wife of Pastor Steven Furtick at Elevation Church in Charlotte, NC. And how appropriate to have her speak on the day in which we celebrate mothers….because mother’s never experience disractions, right?! 😉

When I first read the title of the message, I immediately thought “there ain’t nothing good about an interruption… so how can it be a gift??”.  You know, the moment you are rocking and rolling at work and you get that unexpected thing that comes up or the unexpected visitor that stops by which halts your progress.  Ummm, that’s no gift. Or that evening in which you plan to rest and relax and something unexpected comes up and steals your night. Nope, nothing good about that either. So how can we view interruptions as a gift?! She had me intrigued so I decided to listen. 

Not even 15 minutes into the message I realized that my perspective was all wrong and my attitude needed some tweaking!  Holly pointed out that sometimes we get “so busy with unimportant things that we miss the important things”. And that sometimes it’s hard to tell the difference between what is truly an obstacle vs. an opportunity. That’s right, an opportunity.  Holly reminded us that sometimes, interruptions and distractions could be  “invitations or opportunities” for something so much bigger and greater than we could ever imagine.  But it’s our perspective that dictates whether we view the distraction or interruption as an obstacle or an opportunity.   

After reflecting on that truth for a minute, who am I kidding… for days…. it was hard at first to find opportunity in those painful or inconvenient times of distraction. I can’t honestly say that feeling bad so often is a joy. Because it’s not.  But what I can say is, the rest that is required from sickness brings me closer to God in so many ways.  It has allowed me to see that my strength comes from God, not my own. He has allowed me to be more empathetic to those who suffer diseases or deal with daily struggles as well.  It has allowed me to see things that are more important  vs. the things that really, at the end of the day, simply do not matter. 

1 Peter 3:8 tells us: “All of you should be one of mind. Sympathize with each other. Love each other as brothers and sisters. Be tenderhearted, and keep a humble attitude”.  That said, although my situation is not the favored situation, it is the one that humbles me and allows me to be open to others.  It forces me to lean on God’s truth, not my own understanding.  And I’ll be honest, I’m not always good at this…. I’m human. It’s hard to fully submit and trust The Lord completely some days.  But I know it’s the only way.  

I am not a perfect Christian.  I have never and will never claim to be.  In fact, I have a long way to go in my walk with Christ.  I get distracted with the best of em’! I overthink, I don’t rest as I should, I’m a people pleaser, I’m a workaholic, I’m a busy body.  Basically… I live and breed constant distraction in my own life in addition to the unexpected.  I am much more of a “Martha” than a “Mary” (reference Luke 10: 38-42). Yup, that’s me… Good ole Martha, #blessherheart! 

In Luke 10, we learn that Martha was distracted with serving and making sure that everything was perfect.  But Mary on the otherhand, was more concerned with The Lord himself, what he had to say and his teachings.  In this passage, when Martha mentions that “she’s doing all the work” The Lord replies to her: Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her”. 

Whew! Talk about a gut check!  That’s right, a big dose of #thatswhatsup .  Again, as Holly said in her message, “sometimes we are too busy focusing on the unimportant things, that we miss the important things”.  Each day I have to succumb to the to fact that I need to rest.  Fully, physically and spiritually rest in the arms of our Father.  And in order to be reenergized, refreshed and keep an “opportunistic” approach and perspective, I’ll need to make it a priority to bask in HIS word daily.  Not the word of “Missy” and of “others”. The Word of God.  And THE.BEST part is, that when I choose the “good portion”, it will not be taken from me”. 

If you are floating along in the same distracted boat as me, I pray the same for you too!  That you will choose the good portion!

Spin Ya’ Later Y’all,

🌀The.Dizzy.Chick.🌀

Thankfulness vs. Guilt 

Happy Wednesday Y’all!  And welcome to MARCH!!! 🌺🍀🌷🌸💐☀️

Spring and daylight savings time are around the corner!  Yaaaaassss!!! More daylight, warmer weather (hopefully), a little more Vitamin D to cure those Winter blues and another month for memories to be made! Hallelujah!

Speaking of warmer weather, this tends to be the time of year in which we hunker down on eating well, getting our exercise on, and enjoy being outdoors.  If you are like this dizzy chick, you need to exercise to keep stress-free and mentally strong not just physically. And also, if you’re like me, you’ve had a few set backs along the way which makes getting back in your groove..well, brutal!!

For example, in the gym and/or running, I know one speed and one speed only… full throttle baby!  And of course, I always seem to think that I can pick right up, where I left off…..Ha! No dice!  Then my sweet little slice of humble pie gets served and it tastes mainly of frustration and a bad attitude because I’m not where I was before.  I find myself getting emotional and ready to throw in the towel before I even get started.  Sounds silly…. but hey, I’m just keeping it REAL!

My woe-is-me party comes to an end and then I get my attitude checked by the lovely Lysa TerKeurst during my quite time.  She has a knack for putting things in perspecitive and placing this dizzy chick back in reality.  So here goes…..

Wednesday Wise Words:  “Learn to be more thankful for what you are than guilty for what you are not. Cut the threads of guilt with the edge of grace”. 

From the beginning of my workout, I struggled to be the Missy I once was….without Meniere’s Disease, without set backs, I felt guilty for not being her anymore. I blamed myself, I blamed the disease, I got sad and angry.

Afer my workout, I decided to sit alone in the word and get myself together. It was then that I realized I am EXACTLY where I am meant to be.  Weak, vulnerable and ultimately, needing to lean in and press into God for my strength.  I had to remind myself that I am fortunate to have caught this diesease early on, and that I can still walk at al all.  I can still exercise, and I can still be the same Missy before…. it just takes time. With God, all thing are possible. In his perfect timing.

Psalm 139:13-14 “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well”. 

We can’t expect to be perfect (a friendly reminder from a perfectionist to herself). And we certainly should not feel guilty for what we are not.  As Lysa reminds us, we should celebrate that we are wonderfully made, created for a purpose and FULLY LOVED and ACCEPTED by Our Father. It is time that we cut those threads of guilt with the edge of grace!

I vow each day to do my best to wake with a grateful mindset. Fully present and trusting that I am exactly where I am supposed to be.  If I feel strong enough to lift a full set of the heavier weight, then go for it. If I need to drop down in weight to get the full set, then go for it. Any progress is progress!!!  I want to completely embrace every moment and be thankful for every opportunity.  Nothing is to be taken for granted as the granted things can be taken from us.

Our Heavenly Father, I seem to forget daily that you made me in your image. I pray that your please help me to celebrate, be grateful and live as who you made me to be versus dwelling on who and what I wish I were. In Jesus’ name. Amen.

Wishing you all a grateful week full of blessings!

Spin Ya’ Later Y’all,

🌀The.Dizzy.Chick.🌀

Wednesday Wise Words: Haters Gonna Hate…Let em!

Good Morning Y’all!

The sun is shining and it’s the middle of the week! Woot, Woot!

I’ve decided to start a little mid-week post to keep the motivation going.  We all anticipate the end of the week, wishing Friday would arrive like… ASAP!  Our weeks get murky with week day challenges, how we are feeling, our work schedules, commitments, the list goes on.  But what if we mindfully tried to embrace each day with present minded living, grateful for every challenge and experience we encounter?  Ummm BTW: Present and Missy (The.Dizzy.Chick.) do not go in the same sentence (#thestruggleisrealyo).  We could at least give it a try, right?!?!  We know life is short, yet we wish everyday were Friday (for obvious reasons, no work!).  But, what if we looked at every day as an experience to live, learn and be blessed? We would probably find a few good things came out of Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday to balance the bad. Again, this is primarily a challenge for myself.  BUT…if it encourages others, then even better! 

The purpose is to keep our mind in check and present (including my own!).  Short. Sweet. And to the point! Here goes….Wednesday Wise Words!

BTW… this morning’s quiet time pretty much smacked me in the face..And that’s a good thing! Enjoy…even the haters!! 😉

Wednesday’s Wise Words: Haters Gonna Hate…Let em!

It’s a challenge to not be discouraged by the actions of others. I feel ya’ on this people!! 100+%

One minute you think you have a friend. And BOOM! You learn who they truly are. It’s painful to hear, see and ultimately, accept. Or maybe it’s someone you don’t even know at all. They simply judge you without knowing you.

During my quiet time today, I was reminded that God gave us ALL a story. It’s our story no one else’s. And no matter the actions of others (or the hate), we have to move on in Grace.  In the moment, you want to just “go-off” and tell them loud and clear how you feel. But nothing is gained from any of that… although in the moment, it just feels right!

Wednesday Wise Words: Let them talk behind your back to others, it’s not your battle to avenge.

As Christians, we are to follow the Lord Jesus’ command to “love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you” (Matthew 5:44), leaving the vengeance to God. It is tempting to take on the role of God and seek to punish those we feel deserve it. TRUST me, I’m the first person to be like, “let me tell you something!!” and not settle for hurtful behavior. But I was reminded today, that it impossible for anyone to take revenge with pure motives.

Romans 12:19 tells us: Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave that to the wrath of God, for it is written, “Vengence is mine, I will repay, says The Lord.” Quoted twice in the New Testament, God said, “it is mine to avenge; I will repay. In due time their foot will slip; their day of disaster is near and their doom rushes upon them”. EVEN when the innocent suffer and the wicked appear to prosper, it is for God alone to punish. This has always been a challenge for me. You question their motives, what you did to deserve it, etc. It can literally consume you.

Today’s friendly reminder for myself and my friends: You don’t have to be consumed by the enemy! We can rest in peace knowing that we have victory in Jesus! No battle is too big for him!! How awesome is that?!!

Feeling thankful for all my blessings today! #letthehatershate  #beblessed #wednesdaywisewords

Spin Ya’ Later Y’all!

🌀The.Dizzy.Chick.🌀

Low Sodium Egg White Muffins

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Team Healthy!

If you’re like this dizzy chick, you are on the go non-stop and rarely have time to go through the motions of “what will I eat today”. I can be decisive about most things, but food is not so easy when you have Meniere’s Disease. Unfortunately, food becomes something you have to have, not necessarily for pleasure or convenience anymore. And how many of you actually SKIP breakfast?!?! And we shouldn’t skip breakfast, it’s the most important meal of the day!

That probably brings you to your next thought, “who has the time to make breakfast during the morning rush”. I feel ya’ completely on that one!!! I do well to get myself ready, my dog settled and to work in one piece. And I don’t even have children so to all you Super Mom’s out there: YOU ROCK! Mornings have always been a challenge for me but I’m learning to love them. My life has admittedly become all about convenience, even when low sodium foods are a must. I have to make the time to prepare as best I can. And when I’m prepared, I love mornings even more!

That said, if you are looking a quick “go-to” breakfast option during the work week, I have found the recipe for you! Easy food prep, throw it all in a muffin tin, let it bake, cool, refrigerate and VOILA! You have breakfast for the week. It’s THAT easy! Egg white muffins!!! A healthier alternative to the traditional muffin. A good source of protein (egg whites and chicken/turkey should you add it), vitamins from the veggies, not to mention, low calorie, low fat and gluten free. Pair them with your favorite fruit or oats and you have a healthy, convenient breakfast Monday through Friday. Thought-free and grab-and-go!

I saw many variations on Pinterest for Egg Muffins so I simply modified for my muffins to meet my low sodium dietary needs. Feel free to use your favorite veggies, protein and cheese!

EGG WHITE MUFFINS

1 Muffin Tin
2 Egg Whites per muffin
24 Egg Whites or 1 Carton Liquid Whites
Pam or Olive Oil
Diced Tomatoes
Diced Baby Bella Mushrooms
Athenos Tomato-Basil Feta (Reduced Fat)
Baby Spinach
Diced Rotisserie Chicken (I’ve also used low sodium turkey & roast beef)
Salt-free Seasoning (I don’t season but if so, would use Cavender’s Greek Seasoning – Salt Free)

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Spray muffin tin with Pam. Add veggies, protein and cheese into each muffin cup, then pour the egg whites over the veggies until the liquid reaches the rim. Bake on 350 for 30 minutes. Remove from oven and out of pan immediately. Allow to cool.

To avoid the muffins getting mushy, you must remove the from the pan and let them cool on baking rack (or paper towels). Then place in container or zip lock bags (2 per bag) making sure that all of the air is out.

Enjoy!!

Spin Ya’ Later Y’all!
🌀The.Dizzy.Chick.🌀

Obedience Through Sickness – Say Whaaat?!

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Happy Sunday Y’all!

It’s been several weeks since my last post! I think this Dizzy Chick has been thawing out since a trip to New Hampshire at the beginning of the month. Seven feet of snow for my sweet friends in the North East (bless their hearts!!). And it seems those wicked, frigid temps and ice followed me back to the “warm” state of South Carolina! Brrrrr… I hope all my dizzy and non-dizzy peeps are staying warm wherever you are and that life is treating you exceptionally well!

Aside from the cold temperatures, these past few weeks have offered their fair share of challenges with some blessings in between. The Meniere’s Disease research has been ongoing, I have good days but there have been more bad than good of recent. Frustrated and often wanting to throw in the towel, I didn’t. My purpose for today’s post is to remind other sufferers and/or readers (potentially going through some sort of storm) why you can’t give up either!

Last Sunday, February, 15th, was a tough day for me. It started in the morning with a slight headache, extreme fatigue and dizziness. Constant disequilibrium that I couldn’t ward off. Miserable feeling to say the least. That morning I decided to watch our church service from home. My energy and mood were already taxed and I was disappointed that I would not be able to attend since there was a guest Pastor speaking (who I love!!). #bummedpartyofone to say the least! I had been anticipating him speaking ALL week! Oh well….watching him speak from home would just have to do. Thanks to my parents and my boyfriend, I now have the conveniences of an iPad and Apple TV to console my momentary woes of watching Steven Furtick rip us back to reality through his unbelievable ways of sharing God’s truth. My friend Fran and I get so excited to share his pod casts as his perspectives are extremely applicable to life. That said, I’m all propped up on the couch and ready to go!

The service begins, the music beautiful per usual at NewSpring. Perry Noble, our pastor comes onstage to kick off the message and to introduce the guest Pastor… STEVEN!! Yeehaaaw! I’m so pumped! And in the next moment, an emotional Perry begins to speak about some of the tragedies in several of our church campuses over the past week. A young child dies of cancer, a faithful contributor and owner in the church commits suicide, and a young couple delivers a stillborn child. Our Pastor’s heart is literally breaking for the people in our church. So humble. So real.

Perry shared with us that God had called him to preach on healing as so many in the church needed healing. And I’m in awe of a Pastor that loves his church enough to rebook an iconic guest Pastor so that he could LEAD his church to understand that healing is available to us all. That Jesus is a healer and how we can come to know Jesus as our healer! My heart is warmed and encouraged as this type of leadership and raw emotion is rare to see in churches.

As a person who has been spiritually broken, who is physically broken, who has been relationally and emotionally broken and felt nothing short of a miracle would help, this message was so powerful for me and our church. Perry reminded us that God is not mad at us for being sick. That no matter our sickness: , spiritual, emotional, relational or physical, Jesus just wants us to be well. Perry then reiterated that God has given us the gift to walk WITH each other and SUPPORT each other. Not judge each other. That is what the church should do and will do if it is of Christ. Perry then asked that the Care Team in our Church come down to pray healing over those that needed it. In that moment, I was bummed that I was not there. But I also felt like walking down and admitting that I was broken would be slightly embarrassing and awkward. You know, that moment when good ole pride kicks in and steals your joy! And of course I’m reasoning the fact that I pray for myself… my family prays for me… That’s enough right?! And in the next moments, I realize how wrong I truly am and that a blessing is soon to follow….. If I’ll just trust and take the next step.

After the service, my boyfriend sent a text asking if I wanted to go to church with him for prayer. Of course, I appreciated him asking but gently let him know that I had already watched the service. As the day went on, I continued to feel worse lying around feeling somewhat depressed that this is just “how my life will be”. And hours later at 5PM, my sweet friend Fran texts me: “Praying for your healing now. Did you go to a service today? I feel God leading you to go ask for healing at a service. It is awesome to have someone pray healing over you, it is powerful. I hope you don’t mind my advice. Hugs!!” Whoa!!!! Twice in one day, two of my favorite peeps are leading me to a service for prayer. You’re probably reading this thinking “what is the big deal???”. But friends, this is a VERY BIG DEAL. Those texts were a GOD THING! And when you hear God calling, YOU FOLLOW. I quickly got ready, Dustin picked me up and we took off to the 6PM service where a sweet girl prayed for my healing. I couldn’t even hear all that she prayed from the music, but the feeling that came over me in that moment is unexplainable. There are no words to describe the peace that comes from being obedient. You just feel and know it was right. It was exactly what God meant for you.

On Wednesday of this week, I went for my six month follow up with my Otolaryngologist and the Audiologist for a hearing test. Nervous, of course, to learn how much my hearing had either improved or deteriorated. Wondering if they would do another intratympanic injection while there. I simply prayed for good news and hoped for the best.

As I’m catching up with the Audiologist on how I’ve been over the past six months, she explains that with Meniere’s Disease, a patient’s hearing will slowly continue to fluctuate and deteriorate over time. Nice way to start off huh?! Real positive feeling… NOT!!! So then the test began… Right ear first, worst ear first. I felt myself becoming more overwhelmed as I could not distinguish between the constant, screeching tinnitus or the hearing test itself. Panic was setting in but I breathed and pressed on through. Test complete.

To my surprise, the Audiologist returned with a shocked but pleasant look on her face to share that my hearing had actually returned to the normal range again!!! Aaaahhhhhhh!!! (and the angels sang!). She was pleasantly shocked and said the doctor would review next. Proceeding on to the doctor visit, he reviewed my MRI which was reassuring, we discussed me giving up chewing gum which has provided TMJ relief and then we moved on to the hearing test. He was extremely pleased with the results and kept commending my efforts in sticking by the low sodium diet, by keeping with the meds and by doing all research possible to determine my triggers. He stressed the importance of meditation, stress management and keeping with the low sodium diet. He was proud of my results and that I had listened and obeyed what he asked me to do exactly. Praise be to God for this news!

After the appointment, I received another text from Fran asking how my appointment went. After sharing my good news, little did Fran know that her next words would change my life in that moment…. Her text: “Girl!!!! #powerofprayer. You are obedient. To God and to diet.” Whaaaaat?! Obedient?! Was I really??? Let’s face it, fully trusting and following is not always my strong suit. Especially when your health has changed your life completely. So I thought about what she had said and meditated on her words for a bit… My conclusion which I later shared with my friend:

Fran and Dustin’s leadership, encouragement and support in conjunction with Fran’s perspective allowed me to see just how obedient I had been. Although I didn’t realize my act of obedience that ultimately led to my healing, even if only momentarily (maybe forever)….. You see, God placed me in the hands of a capable physician who specializes in my disease. This physician did not have to accept me as a new patient. But he did. And by listening and following his instruction, his knowledge and the treatment course, that was obedience. And by listening to Dustin and Fran’s encouragement to go to a service for prayer for healing, that was obedience and FULLY trusting God’s guidance through their leadership. In return, I received phenomenal results and the greatest gift of all…. a fresh new perspective in how our obedience leads to our healing, our freedom, and ultimately peace! Jesus Christ is our Healer! And I need to know Him as my Healer.

God is molding me through my storms. And I am blessed and grateful that he’s doing so through wise, loving, caring and Godly friends. They are not judging me even though they can’t fully relate to the disease. Instead, they praying for me and encouraging me through this battle. Emotionally, physically, spiritually, relationally….when I feel like I need a miracle, I will look to God as my healer, confidently knowing that he has got me. Every step of the way!

The most important lesson to me through this experience, and hopefully to those who are fighting a battle today, was the realization that “We want big directional signs from God. And God just wants us to pay attention.”. Thank you to Lysa Terkeurst for helping me to realize this through your ministry!

I’m so thankful that on Sunday, February ,15th, that I listened and paid attention to what God was asking me to do. And that I did not sit in my misery and make excuses. I’m thankful that I didn’t give up on the days that I felt completely hopeless. I’m thankful that I obeyed my doctor’s instructions and the diet. I’m thankful that I didn’t just expect and demand answers or a miracle. And that I saw an extremely intelligent doctor but didn’t waste his knowledge by giving up and expecting him just to “fix me”. I can’t say that this road is an easy one because it’s not. But it’s the road that God has put me on. And I pray that I will continue to find my healing and strength in Jesus Christ. Always.

That is my prayer for you too. That no matter what we are going through, that we always remember that Jesus is the anchor that holds us steady during our storms. As our pastor reminded us today, the tomb is EMPTY. Jesus Christ overcame death. If you are within Christ, ANYTHING is possible. Including healing! Let’s all believe together that “the BEST is YET to come”!

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Father, thank you for wise, loving, caring supporters in my life. Thank you for placing me in the arms of a knowledgeable, capable physician. Thank you for a Pastor who loves his church and it’s people enough to pray for our healing. Thank you for your Grace to love me even on the days that I have a hard time trusting you and just want to give up. You are my healer, my savior, my anchor, my all. Thank you Jesus! In your loving name I pray. Amen

Love and Blessings to All!

Spin Ya’ Later Y’all,
🌀The.Dizzy.Chick.🌀